Why Am I Doing This Blog?

    I want to write this book so bad, but it seems that I am having some troubles. I keep getting writer’s block or I hit a duh moment and I get lost. I have 80% of my layout done and I have over half of it written so far.

    I have always wanted to be a writer, ever since I was very young as far back as I can remember I have jotted down stories or characters for stories. I had the most fun building a character and laying out that persons role in the book, it fun and exciting. As I got a little older I turned my love for writing into a passion for writing and a love for movies and books. I am a huge movie buff and I am not a television type of person. I hardly watch t.v and it is never on in my house unless we are watching a movie. I love to read and when they combine the two loves of my life I am hooked and ready for you to real in.

    When you were between the ages of five and twelve years old and people asked you what you want to be when you grew up I remember answers like I want to go to the moon or I want to be a ballerina. Well when I was young I wanted to write the best book ever and hopefully be the starring role in the movie when they decided to make it one. God I remember to be so young and naive, we didn’t care we thought we could grow up and change the world.

    Now I am 31 years old and my life is a hectic mess. I want to finish this book and see where it takes me, but I have no time ever. I am a single mother of two children. A girl 12 years old and my boy who will turn 3 this December. Dad still helps but we do things on our own, he pays half bill wise for kids, but no child support or anything. Since I don’t collect child support and we refuse to let the courts into our lives and tell us how our children need to be raised, I am punished everyday by the state. I can not seek any help for my children and myself because I do not have a custody order. Here is the kicker, ready? I have to work 2 sometimes 3 jobs to support us and in return I make to much to claim food stamps.

    I have made some bad choices in my life and have done things that I cannot change, but I am a good person and I work hard for what I have. I had to stand up dust myself off and start from scratch last year. I busted my ass and accomplished so much this last year that now I am focused and determined to finish my book. If I can overcome and face what I had to face this year I am stronger then I think. I now have a great job that pay’s me way more then the two I quite for this one, which means I am at home more with my kids and I have gotten some extra time to write. I have a beautiful house and huge yard for my kids and our family dog Dexter.

    This New Blog that I have started is all about me. My life. What I am going through while finishing my first book. These are my emotions, a look inside the real me. I am looking for feedback as much as I can get. I am looking for advice sometimes. I am looking for like minded people to converse with. My other Blog is bits in pieces from the book I am working on right now and I am interested in any feedback or comments that anyone would like to share with me to help me grow as a writer. Please help me Fellow Bloggers. I promise this will be a interesting adventure I will take you on. I have lots of things going on inside my head and to many emotions to sort through. I have lived a very unexpected life so far, lets see what the next five years have in store for me. Can’t be any worse then going to prison right!!!!