Talk about kicking you when you are down

Talk about kicking me when I am down. I am fighting my old employer's for wrongful termination and now my son's Father wants to take him from me.

I don't know what to do right now. I am doing the best I can with what I have been given to work with. 

I love my children and every single day I wake up and Thank God for them. I do everything I do for them. I stay hands on and be the best Mother I can be for those two beautiful babies that I created.

I am scared and very nervous about this court hearing because this will be my 3rd time walking this path.

The first time a Colorado Judge thought it wise to give full custody of my Daughter to her Father, whom his still currently a drug addict and heavy alcoholic. He took my child from me and then dumped her off as soon as he could. 

The second time I had to take him back to court and fight for my own child back. I won of course and she is way better off with me.

Now I am going through it all again with my son and I am scared. I do not trust the court systems and frankly I do not want to be under anyone's thumb especially the State of Colorado.

Please everyone out there keep your fingers crossed for me and pray for my Family.

I know in my heart that I am the best mom I can be and that my children belong with me.

If Joseph's Father wins he will be tearing my Family and our happy home apart.

My son and Daughter have maybe spent a total of 30 days apart since he was born.

I pray that I do not lose my child and I pray that the courts will not keep me here in this town where I am forced to work 3 jobs to survive or take the chance of Grand Junction, Colorado to show their true colors yet again.

I am depending on God to take care of us and to hear my heart and cries of help.

Joseph and Mary Jane you are all I have left in this world and I live everyday of my life for you two kids. I love you with all my heart and soul.

Mommy will always be here and fight for you forever and ever.

All I am asking for is to get the days I have remaining on this planet with my children. Without them I have nothing and it's like not being able to breath. PLEASE do not take my life, my breath, the only reason I have to live.